Millions, Billions or even Trillions Stars Shine

May the Prayer reach the Yonder or far Beyond

Existence and despair in parallel lines

Pay respects to those days that we were lost

I sprinted leaving the sorrow behind

To the scream of the closed emotions

And to the spilled disgusting lies

May them all Rest in peace

Far Beyond

Even after I waved you goodbye

My heart won’t stop questioning me

And the weak heat on my hand

Or the storm gets on my leading way

I’ll reach my hand as far as I can

until it reaches you

Numbers of light with feelings

Dance and flow to where they belong

Song of the moment rushes through

Until the day they meet

Millions, Billions or even Trillions Stars Shine

May the Prayer reach the Yonder or far Beyond

Incomplete destiny rings impermanently

Dream for the eternity and fades

Numbers of light with feelings

Dance and flow to where they belong

Song of the moment rushes through

Until the day they meet

Let me wish for the faintest light of equanimity

to release the hope from the ground to shine for eternity

Let it go, the hope of unpromised,

the fear of unknown, the selfish feeling of mercy

Every little things that exist think only for themselves

When it’s not our turn,

we take out the sword of selfishness by ourselves

However, we let go of egoistic mind

when the suffocating man is dying

To arrest the blood from drying

The wild instinct is sometimes blind

Weight on the shoulder goes

The discomfort slowly disappears and the moment flows

Let me wish, the inevitable ugliness of human beings is forgiven,

let them close their eyes in the dark for once

The distorted over-painted self portrait will soon finish its role

and erase its thick fingermark

Let me wish for the faintest light of equanimity

to release the hope from the ground to shine for eternity

Let it go, the selfish feeling of mercy,

the fear of unknown, follow the core of soul indeed

You were scared and screamed

On exhausted Monday morning and it ached

I felt like I caught the awkward world

Where everyone lives with twisted truth

A song from yesterday still ringing

and bonding me now

Never be able to reach my clumsy heart

When tomorrow comes the pain will almost be gone

The suspicion will fade

And somehow everything seems alright

The broken faint light

Shines through my eyes

Vague memories floating on sunshine

The regret comes always after I faked

To depend on the loss, to keep up the words

The smell of the burnt ashes increased the emptiness

The shadow of the anxiety lost its place

All I wanted was a brand new place

These precious days

Will take you somewhere

Though you might not be able to meet the unchangeable

In the weakening memories

I still hear the ring from far behind

Rather clear sky

and a contrast of the shadow

Trying to reach something we’ve lost

Sometimes I look back

Sometimes I stop

When tomorrow comes the pain will almost be gone

The suspicion will fade

And somehow everything seems alright

Pieces of voice

Light from far behind

Words I rely

Before the day is over

I believed I could walk without worrying about the pouring rain

Until the misery filled up the sky

and abusive words started to fall

You carry the infinite sadness all by yourself

While you stare with worried eyes

What do you see?

Still in a rush even in an exhausted sleepless night

Disconnected words falling down the cheek

I waited endlessly

For the morning that never seems to come after the dawn

Trying to remember the good old memories

Trying to search the reason

Why I’m here

So fucking ordinary days

With numb heart that leads me nowhere

I protected the unforgivens for such a long time

Some day I can let it go

I can go little more, I say to myself

Don’t carry the infinite sadness by yourself

Deep inside your worried eyes, you are alive